I haven’t wrote on my blog for almost two weeks. Yikes! That is a long time. It’s not that I haven’t had anything to write about. I’ve actually had a lot on my mind. I have been wrestling with different ideas and words over the last few days. The reason I haven’t posted anything is because I worry that what I have to say will not sound positive.
Lately, a lot of my thoughts have been filled with worry and anxiety, and I’m not sure anyone would want to read that. There is a part of me that only wants to write about happy things. But if I did that, it wouldn’t be truthful. It wouldn’t be real. It wouldn’t be an accurate picture of my life, or anyone’s life, really.
The purpose of my blog is to write the truth. I want to write about my feelings and what I am going through. It’s a journal. It’s supposed to be a space for me to express my thoughts, whether happy or sad. It’s a place for me to process my ideas and let them go. I am writing for myself. You may not like it. But if you do, that is great. Maybe you can take something away from my words and apply it to your own life.
Here is today’s truth: we all have gunk in our lives. We are all faced with troubles and problems and everyday isn’t always a walk in the park. What matters is how we deal with these undesirable circumstances. We can hide, worry, quit, give up and get angry. Or we can learn, accept, grow, find peace and look forward.
Something gave me the urge to go to church this morning. I had been planning to go all week, and we actually got out of bed on a Sunday morning and followed through! I decided to take notes, which I have never done. I am glad that I did and hope to take notes the next time I go.
Here are the messages I heard today and they are ever so fitting in my life right now:
Do not worry. Do not be anxious. Let it go. What you think you need, you really do not.
This is not what I wanted, but this is what I got. What you can control is your inner response to your circumstances. Let go of what you can’t control or change.
Let go of what you have to have.
So I am going to let it go. I am going to stop controlling and start living.