I’m sitting in a corner booth at Caribou Coffee, slowly sipping my medium roast, in fears of burning my tongue. I roll back my shoulders, hoping to shake off my morning headache. I’ve had them all week.
Silas is at Grandma’s, practicing the use of a bottle and getting used to someone besides me. She asked to watch him and I agreed. As I drove away, I felt naked without him.
I’m a stay-at-home mom now. However, that doesn’t mean I will only stay home and I will always be with my baby. I’m a busy person and I like to do things.
But watching him is doing something, right?
When I was younger, I always thought stay-at-home moms did whatever they wanted. They had the whole day to themselves to do whatever they wanted. They could go shopping, get their nails done, etc…without a care in the world. How naïve I was.
Caring for a child is not a walk in the park. You wake up and your first action is to care for someone else. Instead of brushing your teeth, you are changing a diaper. Instead of eating breakfast, you are feeding your child. Instead of taking a shower, you are dancing in your living room to the Disney Pandora station, making silly faces in hopes of cracking a smile.
I used to put makeup on every day. Now, I am lucky if I get to go pee.
If you knew me before my child, you would probably say I had it all together. I used to be organized, on time and somewhat presentable. Now, my house is dirty, I’m always late and I look like I just competed on American Ninja Warrior (and lost big time. Hit in the face by one of those foam tubes.)
I’m slowly figuring it out. One day at a time. One week at a time. To be honest with you, I don’t even know what day of the week it is! (It’s already August?!)
This stay-at-home mom thing is crazy. I never gave credit to the moms who have done it before me. Way. To. Go. You are amazing. You made it out alive.
This stay-at-home mom thing is kind of fun. It’s messy and chaotic, but it is one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever done.
Just when I’m about to have a breakdown after he screams bloody murder for no apparent reason, he stops and cracks the cutest little smile and makes it all worth it.